30 years old later, where will we be? what will we be? how will we be?
i can't imagine.. sound so terrible!
don't throw such question on me!

after all, im so much looking forward to kukup trip!
23 more days to go~

happy birthday to yuncai and liching!


试得我累了 还是跳不出井外
I AM NOT DEPRESSED ENOUGH TO SHOOT MYSELF ON PURPOSE ~

thank you for always be there for me though i always insist that im strong and independent enough to 'sustain' all the weight given
i know im stubborn, but well, it's me.

女生都喜欢上厕所有朋友陪
but i guess 我是那种可以自己上厕所的

for those who know me well,
u know what i mean. =)

[edit]

我喜欢下雨天 把烦恼放一边
幻想老天才刚失恋
脑里幻影私语 我挣扎不要听
它们描写的悲观情景
颓废行为我最拿手无力解脱
她一直默默守候可是今晚他说
让我成为你的一双翅膀 带你天空中飞翔
飞旋飘扬 找一个天堂 让风吹走所有的忧伤
让我成为你的一艏飞船 给你空间去幻想
失去重心 想月球飞扬
闭上眼睛 Just let go... ...
我被锁在这里 有时不禁怀疑
只有我还留在过去
这自创的监狱 让我无法抗拒

I shouldn't have go to facebook.
ya i shouldn't..


* little nyonya is kinda touching..

trust

yesterday a friend asking me sth like "why you trust me so much?"
i stunned and didn't know how to reply.
yes i seriously don't know how to answer or what answer should i give.
perhaps there's no answer?

"这世界上我只相信两个人, 你和wr.."
Quote from [ Metamorphosis ]

Wikipedia says:
Trust is a prediction of reliance on an action, based on what a party knows about the other party.


Always, it's so near..yet far..

been home for 72 hours and i spent abt 50 hrs sleeping. =="

anyway, i feel so much better now.
=)

i am down with sore throat and fever.
yucks.

met up with xp and zijun this morning.
had our brunch at mac despite the fact that we all having sore throat.

aft that we spent our day in bookshop and cd rama.
bought some books and they are going to be part of my life next few weeks x)

recommended by cat! ;)

shld be nice!

i think..i have had enough with my ICIBA.
gonna brush up my vocab!

and the autographed cd by rui en! hahaha.

signing off!

found myself a space in bookfest @ suntec city.

i love this pic x) got the feel.
book can change one.. i insist.
have put it as my wallpaper =D

jj.
i think he looked better in real, not that fat leh. =X
and quite friendly, i guess? dont know..
should have helped huiying to get an autograph but so sad he's having photograph session today so bo bian =="

rui en.
the lyrics of her songs is nice x)
like her attitude.
and she's actually friendly too. hopping on stage. LOL.

im carnivorous animal.
and a beef/mutton - lover!

hongjiun the grazing animal.
he finished all the vege. =="

my dinner partners!
surprised? shocked? weird?

the beef tomyan soup.
i make one okay.

they can eat alot!
and they like to eat 'wanton' =="

the lecher. lol.
on our way from bugis to suntec.
at first tot of going esplanade there one but ended up i left earlier.

ntu is deserted.
ntu is isolated.
my tian ah..

anyway, im in a good mood today despite having a spinal pain and diarrhea after the steamboat =="

good night everybody.

met my mentor, Christian Kloc yesterday.
i think.. he has a beautiful name x)

well, talked to him for ard 20 minutes.
he's a mentor that you won't feel stressed with.
and he's that patient to answer every of my 无头绪's questions.

by the way, he asked me sth which have been orbiting around my cerebrum
"are you planning to pursue your PhD in ntu or just to complete your bachelor degree here?"

i think that is still a long way to go.
not for 'current' me to decide.
like sometimes we plan for our tomorrow
but end up we never follow our plan.

urgh.

nostalgia

sorry for being nostalgia. x)
bear with me!
cos they suddenly flash thru my mind.
really really...

they are deeply rooted in my mind ;)
thank you for the friendship.

Publish Post

imissyou.dontgo.

Guess what. it's my 600th post here!

the 600th article in 2.5 years.
the 600th article right after my last paper.
the 600th article as a full stop for my first semester in ntu.

a more than nine hundred days
not forgetting the sleepless nights.
has been recorded.
the sweats. the tears. the blood.
the laughter. the grin. the glimpse.
the abreaction. the emotion. the humdrum.
all in it.
because of the.. tenacity.
perhaps ;)

not again bringing me back to the past.
yet, i would like to write down my half year here.

am finding a word to suitably describe this half year.
inspiring?
i was glad to resume my student identity once i stepped in ntu.
with some unrealistic expectation and illusion.

although it might not be as smooth as it SUPPOSED to be.
but im quite relieved that im here
seeing friends in NUS suffering..being stressed
we can still..makan makan at here, which is something quite worth to clap.
* NUS-ians don't come beat me * =="

ppl always claim that life is like a roller coaster ride.
full of ups and downs.
i claim that, studying is like riding in a bumper car.
it give you the title to ride the car
it give you a path to overtake another car
though you might sometimes collide with another car
yet, you will never be seriously injured
ultimately, you again given the space to steer
we learn, from the mistake we make.

not forgetting to mention all my friends here.
chhs gang, lecture gangs, mse coursemates, seniors, hi-bye friends, etc..
i really do appreciate all of you =)

am here to saying goodbye to FE1005, FE1006, BS1004, MS1001, MS8001, HE191
im sorry..but i don't think i will miss you all x)

one sem is gone. i have another 7 sems here.
still in the dream, drawing my tales xD

TO YELL OUT!
HOLIDAYS IM COMING!

* should i titled this article as " imissyou.dontgo " just like how my blog titling.
in case one day i might change it and totally forget abt it.

今年初我志愿 就是当太空人
现在却有反感 无重力好可怕

Dear Sir,

Hi mentor, it's me - szehui! Is it convenient for me to make an appointment with you at 10am 21 Nov, Thursday ( which is tomorrow )?

Thanks and have an extremely nice day!

Best regard,
szehui

---

Dear Szehui,

In my part of the NTU, Thursday is today, but 21 November is tomorrow. I know, time and space are relative. I am kidding,

I will be all Thursday and Friday at the MSE, in my office or at B4 lab.
Come whenever you wish,

Christian Kloc
Professor, School of Materials Science and Engineering, Nanyang Technological University
Block N4.1, 50 Nanyang Avenue, Singapore 639 798
Phone: +65 6790 4716, email: ckloc@ntu.edu.sg


*so paiseh*
faints.

one word.
SLEEPY!

one more paper left and after which we can really HOORAY!

life science? not a big thing!
HAHAHA.
cos when u don't like the module, you will not read every single word in it and hence, it saves you from putting TOO MUCH undesired effort and time in it.
and also, you won't have much expectation and emotion in it. WHICH IS GOOD.

just read thru just read thru.

bochup le!

LOL.

*roar*


just want to shout, for no reason.
no reason means no reason.
everything means everything.
nothing means nothing.
nothing will change even though you have everything.
everything will remain if nothing is changed.

If you are everything to everybody, you end up being nothing to yourself.

If someone is everything to you, you end up being nothing to yourself.

If you are everything to someone, you end up being nothing to yourself.

too.

end up, everything mean nothing.

Just..Hang..Go..There!
3 more days ~

studying is never fun, yet siians.
siian siian siian.

simply siians.


i should plan my holidays.
anybody want to go backpack with me..

dream of my pri sch teacher last night.
suddenly, i have an 'impulse' to contact her.
but, where can i find her contact number?
must think of some way ~

i want to find back alot of my old friends.
but always, my effort on facebook n friendster is futile..

how how??..

壮烈牺牲
HAHAHAHAHA.

die hard physics.
PHEW!

just die tragically.
not feeling any sadness.

我免疫力很强~~

昨天 第一次 我们不用穿着白衣白裙考试
昨天 第一次 我们白天进考场黑夜出考场

是第一次也不会是最后一次

jiayou! ;)


perhaps it will end soon.
i'm not saying exam..


uhh. if only i can rotate the world ~

just do our best.
honest and simple.

yet, i feel so insecure now..
like i have left out sth or what.
urh.

finger crossed!

just pia.
just chiong.

just chiong.
just pia.

just whack.
just smash.

end up being a mad woman. =="

and i have a new friend, bobo.. =p

u know, 祸从口出..
just now i suggested to blog abt our pri sch life but then now im so much lazy to blog..

anyway i should blog still since im the one who initiate this idea
oh my 天~~

time flies back to 12 years ago..
i was just a 7 year-old child

七岁的我 真的不是普通的笨
睡午觉到晚上八点多起来
然后会在那里一直哭
然后家人就会问我做么哭
我就回答: " 因为..我上学迟到了...已经八点多了.."
就会快点去穿uniform..

记得有一次
一个数学老师叫我去前面做 8+8 =?
我就写了一个 12
结果就错拉
就一直被那个老师洗
what the.. 从此 我就真的很讨厌那个老师..
过后几个月后她退休还是什么了的
哈哈哈 我就超开心的
我承认 我有报复的倾向.. lol

不过 有些老师对我真是好到不行
记得有一个老师 对我超好的
会送我文具什么的
重点是 上课其他人走过位会被骂
而我呢 可以随意'飘动' 也不会被骂
威风叻 哈哈哈
过后他退休了 我还常常会很三八的打电话给他

还有一个补习老师
超级无敌凶的
她就会叫我们背乘发表
小学一年级叻 要我们从1x1背到9x9
一个都不可以错 而且要背很快的那种
错一个 就打一下
很荣幸 我被打过不错多下
而且她是那种打屁股的
fainted

小学三年级 因为我真的是懒..
就考到不是很好..结果我家隔壁的那个kiasu auntie就跑去洗我妈
讲什么他儿子随便考都比我好
我现在真是想谢谢她啊
不然我也不会从此都赢他儿子
哈哈哈

讲到那个auntie 真是让人气愤
我小时候踏脚车时
因为踏的脚车比他儿子踏的矮
也给她洗
隔天 我就很气愤地去找了一辆超高的脚车来踏
气死她~~ 哈哈哈

好啦 我真的是被打过很多次的
就那时一份paper有40题
就我每次都做错很多
然后就错一题打一鞭
不过因为私底下那个老师对我很不错下
我被打也很乐意
哈哈
记得她结婚的时候我还有去叻
她还介绍我给她妈妈认识
哈哈
恩 不知道她现在过到怎样了

前几天blog了一篇 " i hate ugly handwriting"
恩 我的handwriting还真是又乱又丑到可以
每次都被老师全部擦完得重新写过

大概就这样咯
有点累 有想到下次再blog.. =))

someone kindly stop me from multitasking..
i scare i ll get depression soon..lol

dinner at essential brew, holland v with huiying and ah8 just now!
glad to see them! after a few months..
still, i feel comfortable with them! haha.
though we are having exam now, but it can't prevent us to meet each others!
it's so called 'friendship' bah?

ok. pictures describes everything. ;)

im enjoying my drink, meanwhile they were so eager to take pic!

a victory pose!

take 1

take 2

my set =)

quite nice!

im violent u all know that haha.

with huiying. she ll be missed!

ah8. miss her too!

they said they want to join my gang so called szehui gang hahaha

xuefen..who who? who want to woo xuefen? hahaha

my baobei! haha

no worry. i ll protect you hahaha
ok the script is actually..ahem!

sweet potato!

肚子饿 没胃口
晚上 睡不着
早上 睡不醒

wonder what my endocrine system is doing to me.

hate to read ugly handwriting!
what the..

im happy with the efficiency of hall-14 general office.
they always do the right thing, and do thing rightly. ;)
and most importantly, they have my spoilt socket repaired.
that's why i can still blog now or i would just be lying on bed look into ceiling and would want to have something kicked.

well.
everybody is mugging hard now.
can easily feel the 'exam' ambience..
but then i just cannot concentrate, though i did tell myself to do so.
think it's a natural reflex for my hand to stick on the keyboard whenever there's a computer in front of me.

and i somehow believe in 不到最后 绝不放弃 就算到了最后 也不放弃 只要不放弃 就会有奇迹..

some thought flash across my mind..
mm..

my exam storage

My pre-exam storage!
(i) a messy table
(ii) a mountain of notes
(iii) my msn which is appeared offline
(iv) my mobtv! =)) BY MY SIDE!
(v) and my 933!

which will be accompanied me all the way in these few weeks ;)

i love ntu leh! ~

一年前的今天

everyone is acting "感性" now~
shouldn't i?

今晚是chhs的毕业晚宴

去年的这个时候

一样是十一月 一样是十一点多
我们说着再见 在goodbye hug后就真的毕业了

真的会恨时间
它太快 快到让人不知所措

三百六十多天 八千多个小时
却有种错觉
一直以为我们一起上课只不过是昨天的事

像昨天, 穿着白衣白裤白裙的我们还在上着数学课
然后 就只有阿发在问博士问题
我们就在下面讲啊车啊睡啊
考试的时候 就是博士得意的日子
因为我们都不会
博士就会很欠打地讲: 你们又不是博士 当然不会

下课 就大家都会很有默契地去买油腻腻的食物回班上吃
洗来洗去~ 刷来刷去~
还记得那时候我们几个三八的还会开赌盘下注谁谁谁会make a perfect couple
谁谁谁会几时分手啊 (很阴险的哈哈)
那个大家都下注统考钟声一响就分手的 没人赢叻~
还有啊 一些人下课会去"protect"小焙
然后我们就会猜啊那个谁谁谁下课会不会去找小焙讲话

班上很多人都姓"小"啊..
好像都是阿雪叫出来的 ;p
一大堆大炮 一大堆绯闻
programmer都是我们啦~

蒙蒙懂懂的UEC
一起共苦的默契
在cherish night后
还来不及休息
我们几个就跑去打工了

从找到工后的喜悦 过后的担心紧张
还有因为不熟sg一开始真的是一直迷路
第一天打工的忧虑
每晚回到去的疲惫
之后的麻木
有时候晚上 真的是看到几个在哭在流眼泪
我们几个真的是同甘共苦
那六个月 不长 可是我觉得我们真的学了很多

不堪回首 ?
可是我没有后悔 在sushi tei的日子
我觉得我做了很多以前不曾做过的事
认识了很多很nice的同事

第一次 以不是学生的身份看这个世界
真的有不一样

我们长大了 在离开s3s1以后
不再是那个头发短短的乖学生
进入大学 一些在国外
去学习适应不一样的环境

回首 才发现真的..
是一年了 时间没有骗我
原来 这一年 我长大了很多
至少我是酱觉得啦

我们的距离越来越远 心却越来越近
cls blog是酱说的对吧?

墙角迎风的雏菊
茉莉花开的香气
闭上眼回到过去
划分界限的桌椅
下课就靠在一起
我就是离不开你
一路乘着溜滑梯
我们说好走到底
以为从此就分离
用黑板上的日期
倒数找你
慢慢清晰原来思念你
是加了糖的消息
我用铅笔画得很仔细
素描那年天气
蝉鸣的夏季我想遇见你
那童年的希望是
一台时光机
我可以一路开心到底
都不换气
戴竹蜻蜓穿过那森林
打开了任意门找到你
一起旅行
那童年的希望是
一台时光机
你我翻滚过的榻榻米
味道熟悉
所有回忆在小叮当口袋里
一起荡秋千的默契
在风中持续着甜蜜
有些话总来不及
一直都放在心底
想要将你看仔细
但错身而过的你
已经离去

STRESS - Prone Individual:
Type A Behaviour Pattern

Type A Behaviour Pattern:
Thinking of or doing two things at once

So,
are we having stress?

~

another sunday.
didn't know that it's alrdy 2nd nov until i check my memo just now
life is messy and irregular recently


小时候的星期天 有游乐场有雪糕
小学时的星期天 有度假屋有海鲜
中学时的星期天 有逛街有超级晚餐
大学的星期天 只有看着墙壁发呆然后继续看notes

siiians!

i want my super sunday back!

time

if there's a question asking " what it the most inelastic element in our existence?" in mat sci quiz

what is the answer?


Ceramics?

Brittle material?


...
.........

...



it should be TIME! isn't it??

inexorable n inelastic.

SO, how can we manage time efficiently?

M.of Humour answer: " Don;t read every word of the newspaper, magazien or novels."

=)