what what what should i do during this weekend?
i went bowling last sun and have my thumb stabbed by my nail
so no more bowling for these two days.
not i'm afraid of it but i think i should have other activities.
maybe a jb trip?
seafood, i'm coming..

anybody from s3s1 want a kl/genting trip??
lets plan ehh..only gal and guy are welcomed.
=/

i feel so empty now.
被掏空了..

hungry SO dont feel like eating.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SALLY!!
yao xiang wo okay?!!

痛苦让人知道自己还活着

frienship

i saw a pri sch friend just now
but then we didn't talk and i even hoped that i can immediately dig a hole and bury myself
like u know, i cant talk comfortably with those i don't know or those we haven't seen each others for ages
just like the pri sch friend
time passes and i'm dead sure that we are leading different life
all right, maybe we can still chat but only with those " ni hao ma?" "hai hao.."
in my bottom of my heart, i still treat them as my friends but being myself, i confess that time and distance make things different.
i hope my relationship with s3s1 wont end up such way like this.
ppl always says that sec sch friend is the most loyal and sincere one. i should believe.

anything doesn't mean everything.
everything is just nothing.
we are just being something.

死寂的夜晚承受不起过多的期待
了解的背面却是无尽的伤痛
都市的街道在只有路灯的照耀下
要比一颗颗的泪水坚强得多
爱 只不过是都市人丢弃的一种本能

i felicitate myself for not choosing commerce studies
it just bored me out
i want to escape from all these ubs account!

Perhaps something turn out better.
so i go n cut my hair.

A is not B.
so haircut wont make things turn out better.

=/

the sky is the limit.

ping tu

have it finished last year but only post it up now.
i want to write more. =X

第一千块拼图

医生的那番话将她的心跳频率彻底打乱了。与她同床共枕五年的他其实是个“她”。她一时难以接受。她决定离开。

机场大厅内，他送了她一盒拼图。他没有挽留她，只是希望她在想他起他的时候，就拼一块。当她将拼图拼完后，想回来了，他便在这里等她。如果她不想回来，那他会祝福她。她没多说什么，静静地，带着拼图飞走了。

飞机上，她的思绪很平静。她知道自己还是爱他的，只不过她不懂该怎么面对他，毕竟他是不能给她一个小孩及一个完美的家庭的。生儿育女可是她从小的梦想，甚至连小孩的名字都想好了。她想，到了日本或许会将他忘却。
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在日本的的一年，她沉醉于那美丽且浪漫的樱花中，根本无暇想起他。只是偶尔，会发发邮件，问问他过得还好么，爸妈也还好么。不用与他面对面，她显得不必那么压抑。那一年，她仅仅拼了一百零七块拼图。

第二年，她厌倦了日本的樱花，决定到纽西兰牧牧牛羊，过过宁静的生活。在那里，她学会了如何挤牛奶，如何喂牛羊吃草等看似简单却又充满学问的工作。或许在牧牛羊的过程中，她很自然地就把与生俱来的母性流露出来。这一次，她在纽西兰待了一年半，拼图拼到了三百七十块。

之后，她又到了瑞士。那是她梦想中的国家。他曾经答应她在他事业有成后便会携她一块儿到瑞士滑雪。虽然这一次只有她一个人，她依然不放过在滑雪中获得的快感。只不过，在她以为已经逐渐将他淡忘的时候，拼图在不知不觉中已经拼到了六百三十八块。

再一次，她收拾了行李，飞到了法国巴黎。她想看看那个传说中高雅且浪漫的巴黎铁塔。她一步一脚印地爬上了巴黎铁塔的最高层，俯视着塔下所有的人们，仿佛在向世界宣告说她已经达到了世界之颠。可是，世界之最尖端常常都只能容纳一个人，所以，她是寂寞的。法国醇醇的咖啡香将她对他的思念推向了最高峰。她将拼图拼到了九百九十九块。
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他四处寻医，他还是希望可以完成她的梦想，给她个孩子。可是，每一次的希望却带来失望，失望带来绝望。他了解自己不可能有一个属于自己的孩子，纵然医学再怎么发达。

然而，上帝拿走了你什么东西，便会赐给你另一样东西。

上帝给了他一颗比恒星更有恒心的心。

他的朋友曾劝他死了这条心，要他放下她重新来过。然而，他却从没放弃过希望。他天天折纸鹤，希望一只只的纸鹤能将他衷心的祝福传达给在七大洋五大洲穿梭的她。每一回她总是愈飞愈远，而他没因此而绝望。地球是圆的，他相信在她离他愈来愈远的同时却其实是离他愈来愈近。

他守着他对她曾经的承诺，等着她回来。
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终于，兜兜转转，她回到了原点。

她让他将最后一块拼图拼了上去。那拼图的左下角有个繁体字的“爱” 字。而第一千块拼图恰是“爱” 字中央的那个“心” 字。
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“……有意领养该孤儿的朋友可拨电07-7654321。”

他们决定领养他。

i want my network back to normal badly.
it's a typical malaysia, typical telekom.
do everything in a very slow track.
inefficiency.


flyer make you fly higher.
but make sure you are not suffered from heart attack. =/

things always turn against our will.
but i hope this time it follows. =)

he's a joke.

当中国还在为地震遇难者默哀时
当缅甸军政府终于同意接受外来救援时
当菲律宾被突然来袭的台风袭击时
唯恐天下不乱的前首相站出来宣布退出umno
以逼迫现任首相辞职

一看到这个新闻
我就想骂 王八蛋

说什么现任首相因为知道自己是个弱者
只会向世界强国低头
却从不向马来人屈服
what the..
干吗要像马来人低头
就像强者为何要像弱者屈服
如果不是马来人 这个国家早就成为世界强国
说什么华人霸占这个土地
拜脱 翻开历史 马来人也不是这片土地最早的拥有者
不过这可以理解 他们根本就不需要辛苦读书就可以钱来伸手
不过这也好 不用脑的人脑迟早退化
以后的历史就有退化论的存在了

his brain is stuck and his heart will sure stop beating soon.
=/

空缺

当你关上了门离开 这个房间
关上了仅有的光线 只剩想念
我还感受到温柔的幻觉
月亮的背面 写满了我们的细节

我的回忆种满你曾对我说过的预言
开成了一座遗憾的花园
也许一天在挤满行人的那一条街
你才会发现我留下的空缺

就当作我们不熟练 不够周全
就当作我们追不上 彼此改变

我以为能完美写下句点
时间在后面 遥控了所有的情节

我的回忆种满你曾对我说过的预言
开成了一座遗憾的花园
也许一天在挤满行人的那一条街
你才会发现我留下的空缺

幸福需要的磨练 我们都误解成搁浅
活在想象的明天 忘了今天未完结

我的回忆种满你曾对我说过的预言
开成了一座遗憾的花园
也许一天在挤满行人的那一条街
你才会发现我留下的空缺
没有人能完全填补的空缺

bought this book.
"what i am asking for is but a hug"

" 你要好好的.."

我喜欢变换莫测的文字
利用文字修饰着感情
利用感情修饰着文字
写着只有自己猜得透的句子
不需要对别人负责


变奏可以回到过去
带走遗憾 带来后悔
你说过你选择后悔
因为至少尝试过 努力过
我不懂

然后 我在想 我要用哪个key
去 copy 我想要的
然后不停地 paste paste paste
repeat repeat n repeat..


BUFFERING..
还需要一点时间...

"人权就是当你活在痛苦时,
可以选择死亡的权利?"


I just realized i have not been smsing much since i'm back in msia
getting lazier or i have less n less friend here?
hmm..

i'm back on 7 may and now is alrdy 14 may haha.



compare to last year record



i guess, i do change.

祈祷 - praying

"当你已经没有明天
该如何为明天奋斗?"

the number of death is still on the increase
many of them are still struggling with bricks, armor plate n other bloody things.
none of us can perfectly understand the pain they suffer
i pray,,pray that all of them can be saved, though i know it's kinda impossible

what will happen if we are the victims of the earthquake?
i would rather die.
but u all cant giv up, cos u arent me u arent szehui.
LOL. i'm serious.


everybody has his/her own rhythm of life.
and how's mine.
getting lazier to think everything of myself
beddinggggggg...gd night.

爱睡觉

最近爱睡觉
起了又睡 睡了又起
太过写意的生活被我诠释后叫做腐朽

我要化腐朽为 神奇
然后继续睡觉

不管风吹雨打 不管星期或例假
我的妈妈从来不放假工作为了家
厨房是她的天下 狮子头还有红烧鸭
样样她都精通不会假她是我妈妈

从小常常挨骂 那是因为我不听话
不要以为这是种惩罚她只要我长大
妈妈我感谢你没有把我跟大毛比
虽然我考试没有得第一她说只要你尽了力

天下的妈妈都是一样的 哦 天下的妈妈都是一样的
天下的妈妈都是一样的 哦 天下的妈妈都是一样的

不管太阳升起不管夕阳它又落西
为了我们你牺牲了自己我永远不会忘记
将来有那么一天我把太阳高高升起
挂在你永远满足的笑意里妈妈我爱你




Happy mother's day.

*roar*

a budget trip to tw is impossible now.
$ 1000 wouldnt be enough.
f o r g e t a b o u t i t.

wake up and come back to reality.
i still need money for sch fee.
i still need money for our 2014. =p

finally i saw my bro n sis aft 2+ months.
nothing to talk with them but at least i have someone to bully.
muahahas.

i do some drawing today.
maybe i should change my ambition to be an artist.
but i only like to draw 'shit'..

禁止的 路过的 丢失的 期待的
我们还可以拥有什么?

爱上妙手人心III
你在的时候 你是一切
你不在的时候 一切是你

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DANNY!
hope that you are having a wonderful bday in tw.
and it's time to grow up le!


Lunch with my very close friends at swensen's ytd.
heh nobody changed, still that 废 and 爱演
"hey whom she is talking with?"
"her 外公 lor.."
"huh?"
"外面的老公.."
then,
家公 = 家里的老公

aft that i went back to sstei and returned my uniform
met jessica and yongsiang for our east coast trip
cycled along the east coast beach for 2 hours until 屁股痛 =.=
but it's fun!!

thn we cabbed down to katong for our dinner.
i have to say that this western meal is super value for money.
we ordered 1 steak, 2 chickens, 2 burgers, n 3 drinks and all of these only cost us a $ 35+, inclusive of gst!!
ASTONS restaurant, it can certainly satisfy your gastric n at the same time you can save your pocket =)

aft dinner we went movie at cineleisure.
watched iron man. such a nice movie.
aft movie thn cabbed home, packed things n slp.

let's meet again at chhs in july.
校庆我们一起去 =p

请你跟我这样做, xue di.. =p

what a messy hair we were having..jian gui =.=

ok. formal pose one.

张开翅膀 飞翔?? 跳stone??!!

See! Pui jie bully my xue di hahas.

it's the one. opposite katong mall.

lemon lime chicken, house salad n onion rings.

black pepper chicken, potato salad n tasty rice.

steak, mashed potato n coleslaw.

mini and jumbo? hahas.

sleepless night.


Can i dont go back?
stupid virus hv invaded deeply into my cells.

我不想离开..

心里有点空空的
还有三十六个小时不到就要回去了
七年来我的生活就酱离家回家离家回家
我承认自己独立了很多
得到的自由也很多
偶尔甚至觉得麻木了
这一次 说没有一点不舍是骗人的
虽然三个月后我还会回来
不过九十天可以改变很多东西
我想 我需要一颗定心丸

Sometimes life is just amazing.

We know each others 3 years ago
because of my wrong add in msn.
thn we chat we joke we became frenz.
and now, we are going to meet in ntu.

it's.. really nice to know you.
jiayou for ur attachment tmr.

有舍 必有得
没有太多的舍不得
六个月的承诺
在今天完成了

感觉好象昨天
才考完uec

感觉好像昨天
还在毕业晚宴

感觉好像昨天
开始在陌生的环境工作

感觉好像昨天
我才刚认识他们

今天 我终于解脱了
六个月 我知道了社会
六个月 我认识了他们
六个月 我看见了人性
六个月 我也看到了自己的极限

潇洒走过 微笑带过
我不后悔

pic with amy and jessica.
nasi lemak gang. LOL.

who is the fierce-est in sashimi counter? WEI GE??!!
but hes the nicest to me. =)
even when i wrong order, he wont scold at me BLEAHS.

Yew wei. Same day we first work in sushitei.
and hes a nice person also. =)

jessica. to me, she's my only senior is sstei now, as in full timers part.

hey when is ur last day HUH?

i know them in sstei: jessica, justin, siewpeng, joey, angel, kathy, mabel, irene, cat, crystal, yongsiang, chermaine, wendy, jerryl, terence, patrick, sian zhi, han lin, bengchong, li hui, corrie, jessie, sally, vivian, xingxia, melissa, jasmine, whol yek, li chin, yingjie, gwen, shunli, youjing, madeline n so many of you. you are cherished. =)

Am i looked like a student still?
an uncle said so to me just now.
his words brighten up my days hahas.

him:"are you a full timer or part timer?"
me:"full timer.."
him:"u looked like a student.."
me:"really? thanks..anyway i ll go back to sch soon.."

i like to be a student very much. HEH.


she sprained her hands. =((
doctor gv her a 4 days mc..
i'm so much jealous of her...
xP

Happy bday to yongtzer and jinhuat!
dont be over excited as i still rmb u all bday
see how nice i'm
HAHAHAS.

跟不上我的节奏让人很痛苦

快 狠 准
杀人的要诀



LOL.

解铃还须系铃人


HAPPY LABOUR DAY!..