Saturday, March 31, 2007

Sian. I'm not going out to buy bday gift le cos i got no idea for it..Any suggestion? Sigh I dont like school days cos there's lotsa of homework to do and pressure to face..I dont like holidays cos it's too boring for me..Oh well I'm just crapping..Haha..

Aiyo..hopefully we can go Pulao Redang on June..Pray harder..Pls dun pour a cold water on my head..I really dont want it to be either National Park or Pulao Tioman..I would rather stay at home if there's no other choice besides National Park..=X I hate climbing..Haha..

Hmm I'm now a bit high cos i saw derrick on tv just now..though it's just a few seconds..but it's enough..Hahaha..Okay, i'm insane..Haa..But feel sad tht i cant watch the show!! S*cky hostel..=.=


Everything seemed to be dead today..Haiz super sian..

A quiz to test ur inter age..try it..


鉴定结果您的心理年龄20岁


与您实际年龄差2岁


幼稚度64%


成熟度25%


老化度28%

Haha i'm quite mature actually..=.=
A msg from a frenz:

[1st msg] 精英老师问小荟一个问题:为什么死人会没有体温呢?小荟站起来想了想然后不知有没有回答..

[2nd msg] 精英老师露出了她的招牌笑容,弯了弯腰拿着手帕抹了抹鼻子说:“因为心静自然凉,所以就没体温嘛..”

Chill..Haha..

Actually i dunno wad to blog about..Haa..

Well, post up some pic of my messy study table in hostel..I'm too lazy to tidy it..=.=


Haha this one is much better than the below one..

You can see bottles, pencil box, hp, mp3, medicine, files. bag, calendar, book on my desk haha..

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to BE
Be, sheng ri kuai le!! =)))

Haha today's class dismissed at 4pm. After bathing i come to on9. I bluff the warden tht i am going to the education exhibition at prime city hotel, but instead of going there i came to internet cafe and on9. Haha. I'm a bad student. Shh..

Hmm thanks for the one who buy me 3 pack of ROcky, Halls and the drinks this morning. Haha. Thanks for looking after of me la..=.= ZZzz. Anyway u are not my baby sitter..=.=

Errs xiaopang, dun be sad k? Just do it better nxt time..U ll forever have my support..buy u the breakfast tomorrow k? Haha..

Well cant blog much..have to go le..gonna buy the bday present for someone. Wad ll I buy? Ooops cant tell. Haha.

Btw quite relieved tht Be received my card la. Haha i was so scared tht the letter ll be returned. =.= I actually dunno how many stamps should i put de. I just put as much as I have..=.= Jianbei, dun laugh at me horr..!!!

Bye.,

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Haiz haiz haiz. Head pain again.

Yesterday was my mama's bday. Okay. I never make a bday card for her la. Zz. But i did buy a fruit cake for her. Ha my dad paid for it one la. =P Thn went to daddy village to tk our dinner. My 4th auntie was going too with her bf. Zz. Sian. I was like a light bulb. Very sian lor. Zz.

Went home and saw my aunt from sg was coming back. Zz. Thn i came on9 and they were chatting v loudly. Quite pechek la cos it's like so many eyes stared at my comp, seeing wad i'm doing. Zzz. And somemore they were chatting abt me, my result, my schoolwork etc. I hate tht. So I just switched my comp off and went back to room. Sms to some frenz but aft few mins thn got no mood to sms le. Zz.

One word to describe myself now , TIRED. Mentally and physically.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Just now my mama asked me if i want a car. Of cos i want la. But there is a condition, tht is i must promise not to drive the car to school. Zz. What i think is there is no use to buy a car if i cant drive it to school. Very confused. Buy a car? Not to buy? Zzz.

Okay la. I got back both of my physics and malay paper le. I got 70 in physics and 91 in malay. Okay la, nth surprised me.

A good news. Haha there are new comps with internet connection completed in the hostel. Tht means I can on9 from nxt week whenever i got free time le. Haha. Thn i can blogging everyday le. Haha.

Ohh..our class lost to s1s2 in the debate contest. Haiz wad would like tht?!! Cos it seemed tht we did better than them. Haa nvm la, sui bai you rong. Right? So, dun be sad lar k..

Oopsy. I think there are some sickening ppl who like to steal ppl's private clothes in the hostel. Crazy one. Somemore the ppl only steal the old one but not the new one. Zzz. So disgusting can. Walao.

Argh. Where's my baby sitter?? You're wanted!!! Zzzz..I felt very bad last few days cos my baby sitter didnt care of me at all and my baby didnt reply me. I just felt tht i'm an idiot la. Like very zi zuo duo qing like tht. Zz. Everyday i can see tht the one who sit beside me got msg and snack from their baby sitter but i got nth even a single msg from my baby sitter, walao dunno how to describle the feeling..=.= But nvm la, i cant be so unreasonable one. I know he/she is busy with school work la. Ha. Oh well, at least my baby replied me today le. Haha. Yupx. =)

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Oh shit. School reopened tomorrow. Tht means i have to go back to hostel le. Siian. I have to survive under the environment without comp, without tv, without my bed again. Arghhhhh. Saturday pls come faster!!

I got a stomachache this mornz so i skipped my math tuition. Aiyo i still got a lot of hw hvnt been done. Die le..dunno whether i manage to finish those hw this night mah. Very sleepy .. =.=

Mysterious. I got a bracelet worn on my right hand one. There are two stars and an angel hang on it one. But budden i found tht the body of the angel was missing, only left its wings. Oh my god..why would like tht?..zz..it's my fav bracelet lelz..Walao..sadded.

Okay la. Nth to blog alrdy. Get this test from be's blog. It's to test our personality one. Well it's mine..


You are very ambitious and because you seek and need recognition, you try in your own way to impress people and you want to be looked up to - to be both popular and admired. You feel that there is a gap which separates you from your fellow man, or woman as the case may be, but this anxiety is an unnecessary one. Keep on the way you are going and you may surprise yourself.


You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!


Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.


You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions.

Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You need to be respected as an exceptional individual. This is the only way that you can hope to achieve the status that you wish to achieve. You set yourself very high standards - and come what may - you abide by them.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

有些失去之後就很難再得到....

我的朋友
在我面前說我壞話
在我背後說我好話
在我發牢騷時不說話

我的朋友
為了泛統或泛獨跟我爭得面紅耳赤翻桌子
一星期後打電話問我要不要去他家包餃子

我的朋友
一年一次越洋電話告訴我他好開心
總是當他正爛醉在酒吧聽靡靡之音

我的朋友
從不記得回我賀年卡
好像他不記得五十萬
不是他欠我是我欠他

我的朋友
衝出門慌忙攔住我問:do you have a minute?
端出一盤剛出爐的cookie說:Taste it,quick!

我的朋友
有的陪我長大
有的教我長大
共同志趣是喜歡成長不想發達

我的朋友
從小朋友變老朋友
說:希望我們兩家的小朋友
將來也成為像我們這樣的朋友

朋友是 ~ 一輩子的事 ~
一個人的早餐只是一個蛋
兩個人的早餐就是一頓愛
一個人的擁抱只能抱住風
兩個人的擁抱真實得發痛
一個人的快樂多麼單薄
兩個人的快樂滿出了你我
一個人的痛苦苦得沒有盡頭
兩個人的痛苦至少有個人說說


世上ㄉ東西
有些失去之後就很難再得到
友誼如此 緣分如此
機會如此 感情如此
要不然還有什麼值得珍惜

朋友 妳是不是忘了什麼呢

Friday, March 16, 2007

I have changed my tagboard cos the previous one is alrdy handicapped, cant be tagged one. Dunno wad error had happened. But, nvm. Tagboard嘛,往往也有发神经的时候..Haha.

K i wake up at 7am today. Then i drove my mum's car around. Toyota Camry. Cos it's auto one, i need not hv to tread the clutch, so i felt good driving it. Haha.

Hmm it's a sms tht I hv received. It make me 啼笑皆非..

"奇事! 我看见了你失散多年的姐妹噢! 她听讲座会时会和上课的你一样把嘴缩进去,而且也戴类似的眼镜,可惜她....."

Thn i replied.

"Who? Not funny.."

"......经过我努力的寻查,她叫...,读...,我也拍了她的照片,有机会给你看。讲座前,她有个弄头发的动作也很像你,而且.....”

Oh my god. Such a funny msg. Make me laugh till non-stop. Haha.

Okay.

1 我上课时哪有把嘴巴伸进去啊?吐血..怎样叫做嘴巴缩进去?Omg..
2 我要换眼镜了!! I dun like to have the same belonging as others..Haha.
3 I admit tht 我常常会用手拨弄头发..but 我还真的是从来没有注意过自己的动作咧..Walao..

Zzz.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Haha i have just came back from sg. No doubt, i should blog abt e trip.

Day 1
Wake up at 5am. Came on9 and watched 2 episode of drama before going out. Met them at ayer hitam toll and brought them some curry puff and pineapple biscuit as breakfast. Okay we were the noisiet on the bus. Haha. Reached sg at abt 11am. Then we str8 away tk mrt from Kranji to Bugis. Omg gosh, we saw a mei nv in the train. Oops actually i just did see her backview la. Only xiaoyun and chaohong got saw her whole face. Haha. Ohh yaya, we saw Long Yuan Nan at the bookshop in bugis. Haha..at first we wanna tk the neo print de..but aft saw him thn we follow him to the bookshop and in the end we didnt tk the neo print le..sobx sobx..Well we went for lunch at the food junction aft 1 more hours of window shopping in bugis. I ate korea bbq beef v rice. Not bad actually. Ohh it's not the main point. K we were infuriated by a small couple. I think both of the gal n boy are abt 9-12 years old la. They were so..hmm dunno how to describe. No manner? Incorrigible? Crazy? They were talking v loudly and we dun have any intersection with them but the gal kept staring at us lor..Somemore aft i finished my meal, i stood up and "accidentally" giving out a smile to xiaoyun them..but then i heard the gal said:"smile for wad la? anything to smile mehz? crazy.." the boy:"ok la..stop la.."..Wth. I was thinking of giving the gal a punch lor. Zz. Well aft tht we walked to bugis street and bought some cd. Damn cheap can?!! Omg..And we took mrt to City Hall again at abt 2:30pm. We went to Suntec City first. But we bought nth at there. Then we went to the food exhibition at Hall 403. Haha a lot of food to eat at there. Pinjan is really a gourmet lover. Hehe. I bought some sushi and hotdog there. And we went to Marina Square aft tht. It's alrdy 6pm le and we dunno where to go alrdy. Someone suggested going Orchard Road but in the end we dun go since it's a valentine day..there must very crowded one and every of us were quite tired alrdy so we decided to go home respectively. Xiaoyun and chaohong went back to NTU, Pinjan went back to his auntie's house in Bouna Vista, Xuefen and me went back to my auntie's house in hougang. So we reached hougang mrt station at abt 8pm alrdy. My auntie brought us for dinner at the hougang mall. We ate some Vietnam dishes. Hehe reached home at 9+pm and aft bathing, i str8 away go sleeping. I adjust my alarm clock to ring at 6am the next day. I was too sleepy alrdy as when xiaoyun called me at 11am, i mistook the call as alarm clock. So i kup her phone la. And was v angry how come my hp siao alrdy so fast thn the alarm rang one. Haha. So paiseh la i was not purposely de. =.= Btw my cousins are both quite cute haha. =X

Day 2
I wake up at 6am. Had to go NTU in the early morning. Tk mrt to outram park and transfer train to Boon Lay, tk bus 199 to NTU. BUT!! Since we were too excited alrdy, =.= we mistook bus 179 as 199. Haha this is the first time i go to ntu so i dunno the way going. Very gong. So, no doubt la, we lost the way in NTU. Haha. We wanna go Hall 15 one. But we were in Hall 2 and dunno how to go there. Xuefen was frightened. But, i was bian tai lor cos i was very excited. Dunno why. Haha. And only at tht time we realized tht we had taken the wrong bus. Haha. So we sms-ed xiaoyun but she didnt reply us can. We anyhow walked also cant find the builing. Walaoeh. So,no choice, i suggested taking taxi. Piangx, the taxi uncle was qian bian lor. He told us tht he also dunno the way. Zz. but in the end he found it la, but the fee is like..omg $6. But anyway, we were very happy when we know tht pinjan lost his way also. Hahaha. And chaohong stay overnight at hall4 so he had walked for abt 15 mins to reach the hall15. Everybody were drowned by the sweat exp xiaoyun. Haha so we took our breakfast at Hall 13 de canteen. Well aft tht we went to jurong point to shop again. Haa. We bought a lot there lor. Cos it's damn cheap can, exp the t-shirt and jeans. $10 per pcs. I bought 4 pcs of t-shirt. Xiaoyun bought 1 pcs of t-shirt and 1 bag. Chaohong bought a full set of shirt v pants v jacket. Hehe. It looked nice to him. And pinjan, the most cute, he bought a giraffe shirt wahaha. OHhh, we met jinyee at the mall too. Haha, the world is so small. K..we went to IMM at noon. Haha, i got buy a jeans, a pants, 2 sleeveless shirt there. Quite cheap also la. Haha. Well we ate Mos burger as our lunch. And it's almost the time for us to go home le. So, we tk mrt to kranji at 5+pm. Only me, chaohong and xuefen was going back. Xiaoyun ll be back v her sis tomorrow and pinjan ll be back on sat.


It's a nice trip indeed. It's fun, sweet and memorable. Cos there's 5 of us. Haha thinking of going again..Hahaha..


Tiring. Gonna slp lor. Gd night.





Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Ohh. I'm leaving for sg tomorrow. Excit ing. Going with xiaoyun, chaohong, pinjan and xuefen. The bus ll be leaving at 8:30pm and plan to reach sg at 10:30pm. Aft tht, i also dunno where ll we go. Just follow our mood la i think. K. I bring not much money there la. Quite poor recently.

Just received a msg from frenz. Pissed off!! She's very panic now. A guy keep harrassing her and even smsing and calling to tell her some dirty stuff. Kns. I'm now quite worrying abt her. Dun let me know who the guy is, if not i ll sure kill him into 80 pieces de. Cursing him!!

Okay i'm going to pack my luggage le. Byebye.
First and foremost, i just wanted to let my mum know tht pls stop compare me with others. I hate it. I am I .. I am not them. Stop those childish thinking k?..It's their businees to get better result in SPM. I have alrdy did my best. Plus i am studing in chi sch not gov sch k? U should know the difference. And thanks alvin for always be there to listen to my nagging.
Hehe. My patriotism essay. Ridiculous right? I hate M*sia lor. So fake of me. Haa.

有一天,一群毕业班的中学生约好一块儿到郊外旅游。忽然间,暴风雨骤然来袭,同学们惊慌地四处乱跑,一看到前面有间小茅屋,大家也都不管三七二十一地冲了进去。一冲进去那破旧的小茅屋内,暴风雨便开始“咻咻”地下起。此时大家都觉得很幸运,刚找到了房子大雨就来了。虽然房子看起来又破就又肮张,但只要有避雨的地方大家就很满足了。然而房子在风雨中似乎不太牢固,摇摇欲坠。同学们想尽了办法扶着它,他们知道不能让房子到下,否则他们就会连避雨的地方也失去了。

那么,在那恶劣的环境下,究竟是同学们需要房子,还是房子需要同学们呢?

其实呢,那间小茅屋就像是我们的国家,再破再烂是我们的家,再穷再旧时我们的家。尤其当我们遇到困境时,她更像一个避风港,永远地为我们这笔风风雨雨。所以,我们应该感激她,爱惜她的,不是吗?

现今社会中,有许多血气方刚的年轻人都在埋怨为何自己不是外国人,为何自己会出生在这片土地上等一连串的问题。大家都在想像如果自己是外国人哪有多好啊!其实,这是一个错误愚昧的想法。也许,或者我们的国家不如别人的强大,不如别人的进步,不如别人的繁荣,但只要我们有决心,有信念,那么我们一定能够慢慢地把她发展起来,甚至朝世界强国的列车迈进。这一些都不是妄想,只要我们有热爱国家的观念,这些美好的梦都能实现。

我们应该庆幸的。因为上天把我们托附在了一个毫无天灾,人祸也稀少的土地上。看见一些国家的人民因为遭受地震,海啸,战火等不幸灾害而叫苦连天,我们却还能平安幸福地坐在咖啡店里哈拉,着实应该感谢上天的厚爱,亦更应该为国家付出更多。

今天,人人都在贪污,国家会好吗?人人都在为自己,国家会好吗?一些人口口声声说爱国,为了国家什么都愿意做,但却老爱把国家的东西往口袋里攒,这也叫爱国吗?如果有一天国家真地陷入了危机,他们还会有勇气跳出来说话吗?他们还会有勇气用自己的身子为国家挡子弹吗?真正爱国,应该是把自己的东西自己的一切都奉献给国家,而不是单靠一张嘴巴在说话的。一些自以为是的人总把国家给的当成理说当然,好像国家供给他米饭吃是天经地义的事,这些人永远都不会长进,永远配不上爱国这个正气浩然的字眼。

两个人生活在同一屋檐下已经很困难了,更何况是三大民族一起在同一片蓝天白云下生活着。各大中小学的课本里总会灌输我们要团结,要互相包容互相尊敬,那么国家才会进步,生活才会安宁。价值观是背熟了,但欲将这一堆观念实践到日常生活中确是难上加难的事。也因此,我们需要付出双倍的努力以期达到万众一心的目标,为国家的前景殿下一层牢固的基石。“马来西亚,能!”的口号不是白喊的,我们得用一颗真正的新去实践它。

爱国,其实不难。你,我,他皆有能力半到。看到小事的人能看见大事,但看家大事的人不一定能看见小事。所以,爱国不一定要实现丰功伟绩,凡是从生活中做起。

(1151字)

Monday, March 12, 2007

Finally..I pass my driving test le. Feeling relieved now. No more stress le. Phew. I got license le. Haa nth to celebrate also la. Since everybody got the license too. Zz. But i'm fed up with the attitude of the government officer lor. Very e lie. I have been waiting at there from 6:30am till 3pm just to take the test lelz. How efficient they are? A bull of shit. =X Well..I must thanks the one who asked me to jiayou in my dream ytd. It's ur encouragement which brought me to the succeed side. Xie xie. And also, thanks for those who wish me good luck one. Hehe. Baobeix, it's ur turn on weds lelz..must do ur best k?..

Wheets. I got back my SPM result today. Silly xiaoyun smsed me telling me the result. Hmm..actually the result is out of my expectation. I was shocked when i was told i got 6A's in the spm. Omg i didnt study much for it last year lor. Hehe i think i was in a gd luck la. Lol. Yanxiong the most sick one lor..he got 9A's and yongtzer, jiayi, yewxiong gt 8A's. I think they are crazy alrdy la. Can still get a gd result since the paper is all malay words. Hehe. Anyway, SPM is not tht impt to us..So, those who didnt do well in tis exam, pls cheer up. Dont be too sad. We still got UEC to go through this year. Let's jia you together. =)

Okay. Here's my result:
Chinese A1
English A1
Malay B3
Moral D7 ( Cool right? Hahaha!! )
History D7 ( I'm god HAHAHA!!)
Maths A1
Add Maths A2
Science A2
English Science in Techonology A1

Sunday, March 11, 2007

I am having driving test tomorrow. Worry-ing. I scare I cannot pass. Haha. Okay la, I have not much confidence in myself. Dunno why. Well, must believe in myself de. Ha.

And today when I went for driving lesson, damn pissed lor. Cos I wore the slipper there instead of wearing the sport shoes, I was a bit bu xi guan with the shoes so I kept tread the clutch incompletely. The uncle also found it and he even reminded me to wear sport shoes tomorrow.

After the lesson, I called dad to brought me home cos I dun wanna to wait for the uncle. He still have 2 more students to teach. I was thinking to buy a new pair of sport shoes so I asked dad to bring me to summit lor. For sure, I tk the $$ from him la. He gv me RM 150 so I decided to buy the adidas one. Haha. I just wanted to revenge my mum la..who ask her to ignore me last night. Hmm..

Reach home at abt 2pm. Mum asked me to tk lunch but I never. I str8 away go to my room and sleep from 2:30pm to 7pm!! Too tired le I think. I slp at 3:30am last night and wake up at 6:40am this mornz. Quite tired.

Haiz I think most of you are having camp now. Do remember to tk care always.

Last but not least, god bless me tomorrow..

Saturday, March 10, 2007

I dunno. But i think i got a serious "幻嗅"..I always can smell of some incense and it make me headache badly..

Wadever. I just finished the essay of大将文学奖"..Post it here.

不知道从什么时候开始,我习惯了趴着俯视他们。
不知道从什么时候开始,我习惯了静静地聆听他们。
不知道从什么时候开始,我好想开口对着他们说话。
不知道从什么时候开始,我好想我就在他们身边。

所有的习惯?一切的好想?总认为雨后便会有阳光。习惯变得好孤独,但我珍惜它;好想便得好无奈,但我坚持着。

该恨吗?我不懂。

“一闪一闪亮晶晶,满天都是小星星……”小时候,我离天上的星星好遥远。我渴望着夜空中闪烁的星斗。不止一次,我独自一个人坐在辽阔的草原上望着星星……不止一次,我拉了三几个好友一块儿到湖畔边欣赏着变换无穷的星星……也不止一次,我伸出了双手欲将天空中那颗最闪亮的星星给摘下……

那个时候,我单纯地以为,每颗星星都是一个守护着自己的天使,自己总有一天也要学着星星们一样,守护着身旁所有疼爱我的人。

如今,星星们不再离我好远好远。其实是我离星星们好近好近。

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屋子里,三颗心脏在三个不同的角落跳动着。客厅墙壁上悬挂的依然是那一幅一家四口一块儿到瑞士滑雪的幸福相片。相片中,爸爸一改平日不苟言笑的样子,微微地扬起嘴角。妈妈穿了好几层的寒衣,看起来蛮臃肿的。然而,妈妈却是相片中笑得最灿烂最温馨的那个。欠扁的哥哥在相片中依然不改本性,继续地以不屑的眼神以及酷酷的笑容欲电晕拿着相机的摄影师。不过印象中那个摄影师好像是男的耶!当然,相片中还有一个抬起头望向瑞士天空的我……

现在,屋里头的气氛却与相片中的感觉相差甚远。爸爸独自一个人坐在书房内。他的习惯没变,他还是将那扇五角形的窗口倾斜地推开了45度。他孤单的身影在陈旧的摆设与枯黄的书籍衬托下显得格外憔悴。爸那张象征着威严的脸庞却已不复在。银丝与火车路更在不经意中悄悄地侵占了爸的头顶与额头。其实有好一段时间了,我没有如此专心的看着爸。爸的手中正握着一本星相学说。从前的他最厌恶这类书了;今天的他却拿着那本足有237页的书不释手。是他变了吗?没有。他还是我的爸爸,他还是很疼我的,他知道我喜欢看星相书……他眼角的泪光,我有看见……

妈又躲进了我的宝贝房间。从前我都不允许任何人踏进我的宝贝房间一步的,哪怕是妈也被我下了禁足令。房间里头结合了我太多的欢乐与泪水,是我开心与伤心的见证地,只想保留那么一丁点自己存有的隐私。也记得,妈妈曾因为好心进房帮我打扫房间却得到了我的一顿臭骂。今天,妈又不听话了。可是此刻的我却没有一丝想要责备她的冲动,反倒觉得好窝心。

看着她一页一页地翻着一本本的相册,让我想起了小时候妈妈总爱带这我坐上三轮车在热闹的的市区中穿梭。想起那个三轮车夫流下的汗水还真觉的恶心。我好多美好的童年都是妈给的。她最爱拖我到相馆中拍照了!也因此,相册中的每一页几乎都是我与妈妈的合照。妈一页一页地翻着相册。她看得入神,没有发觉鼻涕与泪水已经流满了整个脸侠。相册被翻到了最后一页,妈的手突然愣住了。那是一张我在幼稚园拍的相片。相片中德我正拿着一座奖杯对着镜头傻笑。妈的泪水愈来愈急速了,她一定是想起了我幼稚园时代是的任性与懦弱。

那时候,妈每天都得到学校陪我一起读ABC,一起写123,一起做体操……否则我就会任性地一直苦闹,甚至闭起眼睛不听老师讲课。邻居街坊们曾劝妈干脆把我拖回家算了。可是妈并没有放弃我,她甚至更耐心地教导我。每一次的体育课,我都会拉着她陪着我跑草场。记得有一次,我还将她衣服上的钮扣给扯了下来呢!真实可笑……

妈睡着了……她应该很累了吧?想起她已经有好几天没闭上眼睛了……

隔壁房又传来了震耳欲聋的喇叭声。一定是哥又陶醉在他的重金属音乐里了。他每一次都是这样,根本不理会他人所受德听觉虐待,永远坚持着他自己所谓的“音乐风” 。就连我这个超凶超野蛮的妹妹也拿他没办法。

哥大我两岁,但小时候我照顾他的时间却比他照顾我的时间多。小学时代,他总爱在校园里闯祸。如果不是我这个妹妹多次地代他向校长求情,真不知道他会被校方开除多少次呢!就像全世界的哥哥一样,哥也常欺负我。每一次欺负完我后,他总会买一根棒棒糖来贿赂我,否则我就会将他的超级恶行告诉爸爸,那他必有一顿藤条大餐等着享用了。嘿嘿……不过,随着年龄的增长,我与哥开始懂得心心相惜。我们学会了将彼此的心事告诉对方,我们懂得互相安慰遇到挫折的一方。哥知道我会写部落格的习惯,但他却不喜欢也从未拜访过我的部落格。他说过他不希望我们两兄妹到最后得依靠两条电话线来沟通。

然而,今天的他破了例。酷酷的眼神依然没变,我却看见听他那握着滑鼠的右手在颤抖……

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“爱是永远不会消失,从伤痛的地方开始,记忆变成一床被子能温暖心事……爱是永远不会消失,不过换个方式……”

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另一个角落,我的眼角膜让另一个她看见了星星……


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Friday, March 09, 2007

Aiya. I have got back most of my paper le. Sadded. Poor result indeed, esp maths and english. I nearly broke down when i saw the result la. Somemore both of the papers were distributed on the same day. Haiz frankly, i really did study hard for the exam. I have alrdy put in all my effort in the paper but it still result in a sad way. Errs, i never drop tears for my result since i entered sec sch, but this time i failed. Zz. I also dunno why the tears would roll down la, i had been trying hard to control it le and i dun wan to cry de mah. Zz. No image alrdy. =.= Xiaopang, u didnt see anything right? Haa.

Oh. Prof Loh Teck Peng, the Head of Division, SPMS, NTU had given us a speech yesterday. It's about the course of Physics and Applied Physics, Maths, and Chemistry Engineering. The lecture was quite interesting i think, at least not boring. Haha. After listened to the speech, i have been tot and tot and tot abt my future. Till now, i'm still confused abt wad course i am interested in. I'm like got no interest and talent at all. Haiz. Somemore it's another headpain tht if i can get good result in the UEC exam. I doubt myself.

Hmm..it's my result in the exam.. )) Giving myself a slap!! Wake up szehui!! ((

English 80
Chinese 87
Malay Dunno yet
Math 60 (( Argh!!))
Chemistry 81
Physics Dunno yet but sure v bad one
Mechanic 85
Bio 73

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Today is yuan xiao jie. Haiz nth to do also la. My mum got cook to pray my grandfather so i ate a lot today. Anyway, 新年终究还是结束了...下一个新年就是明年了..Yeah..很多东西也会不一样了噢..

Well..there's a tradition in ancient china tht ppl will 放天灯 to make their wish during this special festive..and here i have found a website of it : http://web2.sdps.tp.edu.tw/english/skylite.htm .. People, go and lighten a lantern bahx. Ur wish may come true de..Hee..




慈悲


那慈悲的笑容
平伏那无限愁
使世界变得安宁

不曾渗透那里
然求心上的寄托
逐渐感受
世上的温情事
不再迷惘


那颗慈悲的心
也感化了他们
让他们重生

万丈的光芒
也给了
在路上迷失的
路人们
一条 回家的路

Saturday, March 03, 2007

A nice article to share:


[ 第一世]
在恐龙灭绝之后不久,她爱着他,他不知道。

她把最甜美的果子喂到他嘴里的时候,他不知道。

她把最精美的兽骨项链挂在他的脖子上的时候,他还是不知道。

甚至当她温柔地依偎在他怀里,带着笑容睡去的时候,他还是不知道。

他穿着这个族里最漂亮的兽皮衣服,戴着这个族里最漂亮的兽骨项链,身边还跟着这个族里最漂亮的女人,但是他还是不知道这是因为她爱他。他好像习以为常,习以为常通常不是一件好事,有好多该发现的东西没法发现,有好多不寻常的事都因习以为常变得寻常了。
  
于是他还是过着寻常的日子,他还是不知道这一切并不寻常。  

在那时候,和外族的战争是不可避免的。胜利者得到奴隶和生存的权利,失败者注定要失去一切。这是自然的规律。
  
在无数次氏族战争中的某一次,他们战败了。有的人失去了自由,有的人失去了生命。
 
通常失去生命的是男人,失去自由的是女人。因为长久如此,没有人觉得这不公平,技不如人当然应该认输。被俘虏的男人等着被杀,女人则等着被某个异族男人领回他的洞穴。
 
她知道,这样一来,他们更不可能在一起了。她和他都将成为异族的奴隶,奴隶是没有自由的。   她没想到他可能被杀。
  
当她看着他在异族人的刀下倒下去的时候,她哭了。
  
她曾经为他哭了无数次,只有这一次是当着他的面,因为那一刻,她的心真正地碎了。
  
她曾经为他哭了无数次,只有这一次他看见了,直到那一刻,他才明白原来一切都非比寻常,他才知道她爱他。他在心里说,我欠你一滴泪。但是他无法做什么了,因为他死了。
     
异族的首领发现有个女俘虏死了,据说是因为心碎了


[第二世]
他是一只飞鸟,她是一条游鱼。

他们互相相爱,但是他们无法见面。
 
他去找神——飞鸟总是最靠近神的动物。

神对他说:你们的姻缘是三生三世的,这是第二生,既然这辈子没指望了,还是等下辈子吧。鸟没有眼泪,但是他的心在哭。   

神轻轻叹了口气:我看见你的心在流泪。我可以用法力让你能够流泪,但是你要记住,只有一滴。
  
过了一会儿,神又说:我再告诉你一个不是办法的办法吧,据以前的神说,只要大海干枯了,水里的游鱼就会变成飞鸟……   他马上飞走了。看着他的身影,神自言自语:“哎,我又说谎了。”
      在此后的日日夜夜,他抑制着自己思念的眼泪,并且叫着“不哭,不哭”,不停地衔着石头投到海里。在心里,他无数次的看见海干枯了,她变成了鸟,然后他对着她流下那一滴珍贵的眼泪,对她说“我爱你”。但,这一切都只在心里出现过。

有人说他是布谷鸟,提醒大家及时播种;

有人说他是精卫鸟,为了复仇才要填平大海。

他们都错了。因为他们不知道这是三生三世的爱情。
 
直到有一天,他要倒下了,虽然他不相信海是填不干的,但是他确实精疲力尽了。

他感觉自己要哭了,他拼命地抑制自己,他声嘶力竭:“不哭!不哭!”他挣扎着最后一次飞向大海——他要倒在海里。  

他渐渐地沉向海底,在生命最后的一刻,他看见了她的身影,她也看见了他。

但是他们看不见彼此的眼泪,因为他们都在水里。



[第三世]   
当她还是鱼的时候,她发誓要变成飞鸟。于是第三世她成了一只飞鸟。
 
他呢?这一世他是一只小飞虫。   
这次是她拜访了神。神对她说:这是你们最后一世的姻缘,是最后的机会了。过了这一世,你们彼此将相忘于江湖。   
神又一次看见鸟的心里在流泪,于是对她说:在他的第三世,你会遇到危难,到时候他会穿着金甲圣衣救你与水火之中,然后还你一滴眼泪。
风,把她和神的对话送到他的耳朵里。他笑了。他知道他终于可以在这第三世见到她了。这样,那些话,那滴泪,都可以送给她了。  
这一世,他们互相寻找。  
向左,向右,不断地选择。  
不止一次,他们在同一条路上飞过,但是时间不同。  
不止一次,他们在即将相遇的时候,选择了相反的方向,就此错过。
他们彼此追逐,他们无数次重复着对方的路线,他们无数次的错过。
天空实在太广阔了。   
冬天的某一天,风告诉他,她在朝着他飞来,叫他在这等着。  
他欣喜若狂,生怕错过她,偎在一棵松树上四处张望,他发现有时候阳光竟是那样的灿烂。这两世,他是第一次有时间注意到这件事情。  
太阳注意到另一件事:他快死了!没有任何一只飞虫能度过冬天。他等不到她了。
他开始感到自己要死了。他恨,他恨飞虫的寿命太短暂;他恨前世的飞鸟不能游泳;他恨自己那么晚才明白她爱着他。
他快死了,但是它不能死,因为这是他们姻缘的最后一世了。
那么金甲圣衣呢?那么那一滴泪呢?难道神又一次说谎了?  
她在飞过来,但是他的生命在急速地流逝。  
看到这一切,他依偎的那株松树哭了。  
松树的眼泪是一滴松脂,这滴眼泪正好把他包围起来,紧紧地,使他的生命不再流逝,他因此保住了最后的一点生命力。但是同时也失去了行动的自由。
这是最后一世了。谁也不能眼睁睁看着他们再次错过。
她飞来了,他喊,但是他喊不出声,松脂已然凝固。  
她看见有个金黄的东西,是那样地耀眼。但是她错过了,因为在她心里,多耀眼的东西也没有他重要。  
最后一世,他们就这样错过。
她精疲力尽地倒下的时候,太阳哭了,因此天阴了;风哭了,因此下雨了。


[其后]   
时光不顾一切向前飞奔,轮回照样进行。
千年的轮回,使松脂变成了琥珀,而他,还靠着最后的那一点点生命力活在他的第三世。只要琥珀不被打碎,他就会一直活在第三世,守望着那段姻缘。
无数次轮回之后,她又变成了女人。但是她早已忘记了那段三生三世的姻缘,她有了另一个心爱的人,他们幸福地在一起。  
有一天,她的男朋友看见了这只琥珀,买下来作成项链送给她。她把它挂在脖子上。
这是第一次,他们又能这样如此亲近地待在一起,但是他已经不能说话,她也早已忘记。   看着她和男朋友幸福地生活,他有时候很嫉妒,有时候很开心,但更多的是悔恨——如果自己早一点明白的话,他和她早就可以这样幸福地生活在一起了。他无数次地哭泣,但他已无泪。
 
有一天,她的公司失火了,她在顶楼。
她拼命地逃啊,但火势很大,脚下是一片火海。
 
火神咆哮着:我还要吞噬一条生命!  
她听不到,因为她是最后一个目标,因为她已不是远古的生物。
他听到了,他还活在他的第三世。  
那一刻,他蓦然记起千年之前神的话语:“在他的第三世,你会遇到危难,到时候他会穿着金甲圣衣救你于水火之中,然后还你一滴眼泪。”   原来如此!
 
奔跑中,她感到脖子上的项链蓦然断掉,但是她无暇顾及,她要跑出去,她的男朋友还在等着她。
 
她不知道,在她身后的火海里,那只琥珀融化了,从琥珀中冒出一个气泡——那是他在松脂凝固之前为她流下的一滴眼泪,这滴眼泪在千年之后被火神释放出来。  
不用问他怎么样了,就算没有火海,他的生命力也会因为琥珀的破碎而消失。
火神吞噬了最后一条生命,在她的背后止步。  
 
她奔出火海,扑到男朋友的怀里,哭了。人们都说她能从大火里逃生真是奇迹。
 
她的男朋友抱着她哭了,大声地说“我爱你。”她周围的人都很清楚得听到了,但是没有一个人听到火海里那只千年之前小虫的临终话语,那也是一句“我爱你!”   
神在天空中望着一切,“在他的第三世,你会遇到危难,到时候他会穿着金甲圣衣救你与水火之中,然后还你一滴眼泪。”千年前他说的话在自己耳边响起。  
神哭了。  
她和男朋友一直都很幸福,但她不知道这是因为神为她哭过的原因。


[最后]  
 轮回继续,生命继续。  
 唯一不再继续的,是那段被遗忘的三生三世的姻缘...




Just come back from a buffect dinner. Sian. Regretted going there. The food is not delicious and the environment is poor. Stupid dinner. I would rather stay at home facing the wall than going there. Stupid. Cos at first i dun wanna go de, but then they asked me to go cos got scholarship to get. Well i went. But in the end, there isnt. Kns la. Waste my time. Stupid. Argh!!

Ohh there's some pervert in my hostel. Cos my private clothes was missing this few day. And so did my sis's too. Kns la. The one who stole these things should go seek for doctor's help la. Walao.
Doomed. The exam was killing me. Though it has finally come to an end, but i felt more panic. Cos ll get back the result soon. I don't want to face the fact, i know i did bad in my exam this time. Seriously.

The physics paper today make me depress. I actually know the way to solve the question de. But in the end i did it wrongly again. The formula should be : (V+Vo) / (V+Vs) one..But i dunno wad i was thinking la..i wrote it into (V+Vs) / (V+Vo) .. My 20% is gone..Heart-broken..

I shouldn't burn the midnight oil yestesday de. It make me looked like a zombie today. I cant sense all the question on the paper at all. Haa actually i seldom study for too late although it's an exam period. I die die also must go slp at 11.30pm in spite of the exam one. But yesterday i didnt, i persist in solving those physics question until 1am, but my work hard didnt help me at all. It did only make me worse. Haa.

Anyway i should thanks xiaoyun. Chatted with her make me better. Eh, do remember to leave ur 14 March for me horrz. Valentine lelz. Haa. Have decided to go sg with her tht day. Chaohong going too i think. And maybe also Alien. Well. Looking forward for it.

Well. Be was going to bintan alrdy. Zz. Hope she is doing well there..God bless her. Bless her bless her. Waiting for her return..